A Beautiful Mess

I am a mess.

I stress about too much.

 I mishandle so many life situations.

I often joke too much and say too much.

I’m a wreck.

I’ve gained weight this past year because my diet is terrible and I stopped working out a lot.

I have broken promises.

I have compromised.

And yet, my life is beautiful.

It’s beautiful that I’m here in Johannesburg. It’s beautiful that God still uses me to reach others who are a wreck. Who’s lives are a mess.

I'm back again on the Campus of Wits University in Johannesburg, South Africa

I'm back again on the Campus of Wits University in Johannesburg, South Africa

I sat in devotions this morning before our first day going out on campus and realized that I don’t think I’ll ever get to the point where my life is completely put together; that I’ll never have all the answers for the students I meet and share the gospel with.

And to me, that’s beautiful. God didn’t ask me to have everything put together. He asked me to go. So here I am.

I am those things but not defined by those things.

I am a beautiful mess.

Already I have met students that needed to hear the truth of the gospel. That no works or having your life in order will get you into heaven.

I have already met students that need to hear not only my beautiful mess, but the members of the teams stories and messes.

JC sharing the gospel with some Wits students

JC sharing the gospel with some Wits students

I am part of something bigger than just my wreck and my messes. I don’t have my entire life in order but God says come as you are.

So here I am. As I am. Time to use my messy self to bring life to students here in South Africa.